Because of my wounds
If I didn't do it, he said he'd...
But I'm not as bad as her
Evelyn certainly sees her part in her actions- and the ugliness of the results. Her real issue, however is that her greater excuse lies in why chooses not change.
She is stuck in the slippery slope of her transgressions. Evelyn honestly does not believe that she has the strength to say no, to choose another path, to fight the upward battle. Quite rightly, she doesn't. It's not something that a person can easily do alone, and yet she chooses to rely on herself, failing dismally. She believes she will keep failing, and it's the reason that she does.
The strength that would be required
To fight off that spider…
Its web is sticky and I am stuck.
But not for long.
It’s one of those things
That cannot be done alone.
But You can help me,
I just have to ask.
That’s half the struggle.
Why O why
ReplyDeletedoes Evelyn not wonder
Are the results really 'ugly'
when chain-reactions go on to rectify each blunder?
Will she hear
the voice of The One
who asks her "why journey alone
when together a lot can get done?"
Do ladders await her
further along the slopes
while strength gathers
as she endures and hopes?
There is help, there is hope
if she wants to clean out all the sticky mess
Will she or won't she, choose to receive them
is not that simple a matter to guess