That's Deep

Evelyn is head smart but definitely not life smart. In a way, it's like she sees how to reconcile a situation, but is just too stubborn to. Her pride gets the better of her. And she wants nothing more than to wallow in her own self-pity.

Just as I am learning more about myself every day- more about who I am, who I was created to be, what I like to do, where my passions lie, and what I believe in, Evelyn is doing the same. Her person is emerging in a thicket of words that flow from my brain through to my fingertips. She has taken on a life of her own, and I am thoroughly enjoying getting to know her.

I'm getting a small sense of what it would be like to be God. It's rather exciting. And at the same time, enlightening- feeling a persons internal struggles and the actions they cause externally. As Evelyn has become victim to her own torture, it's helping me to see the ways that I have caused myself to suffer over the years. Refusing to remember things- that only pushes the pain deeper.

I have buried my past so thoroughly

That the memories are lost and forgotten.

I have come so far

I don’t even remember who I used to be.