The journey ahead

I did it. I wrote those wretched words. I endured and now Evelyn prevails! What a relief to have ventured beyond the abyss. Now winters gloom hangs above her miserable head and a new journey awaits her. Oh the excitement of it all!

A journey that must be taken

I have a conundrum. Though I know where Evelyn is heading, I do not want to follow her. I do not want to be responsible for those words on the page- innocent words by themselves, but dangerous when pieced together. Yet I feel the call to follow. I feel it necessary for her to walk down this path, for the destination is righteous. It's the getting there that scares me.

Long ago, when this journey begun, I felt at peace with its direction, feeling that lessons hard learned are still lessons learned. That some people just have to learn the hard way. Evelyn was one of these people. Now that I've reached this stage, however, the practice of writing such things has stunted my progress.

I've tried to work my way around it, to come at it from a different angle, but no angle seems to fit. It's left me with three options: write a story that is untrue to Evelyn, abandon Evelyn completely and cease to write her story, or follow Evelyn down this path.

I feel compelled to continue. Oh forgive me!

May the ending be well worth all that Evelyn has to go through to get there.