Instead I do what I hate

A thicket of cloud has settled over the land, matching the mood of our heroine. Yet something changes in Evelyn and she acts impulsively. She feels a stranger to her own body. "I do not understand what I do;  for I do not do what I would like to do, but instead I do what I hate" (Romans 7:15).

My left hand brandishes a knife

Whilst my right arm cradles the weak.

My left hand throws a punch

Whilst my right arm settles to sleep.

My left hand creates a barrier

Whilst my right arm invites a guest.

My left hand causes chaos

Whilst my right arm cleans up the mess. 

My left hand slaps my sister

Whilst my right arm holds my brother.

My left hand hates my father

Whilst my right arm loves my mother.