Sunday, February 27, 2011

Believe

Evelyn does not believe her existence to be important. She lives in the denial of her self-worth. She does her best to stop herself from believing it, whilst those around her fight for the opposite.

Does this sound familiar? Like, have you ever heard those matter-of-fact statements from a friend, a colleague, your mother: "you're amazing", "you're wonderful", "you're so worth it"? They can see it, even if you refuse to. You respond by shying away, bashful by the statement, or lash out in disagreement.

I want to challenge you to believe it. When you hear those statements, agree with them. Go "yeah, yeah I am brilliant, aren't I?" (in your head of course- no one gains from a big head). Then let it sink in- let it sink in until you believe it.

Because:
Great things are accomplished by people of great confidence.

Friday, February 25, 2011

The Joy Of Reading

I spent a large chunk of my primary school years reading books. They absorbed me until the wee hours of the morning until I would choose rationally, guiltily, and regretfully to put the book down. At school I can recall spending far too long browsing the shelves of the library desperately hoping I would find something interesting. Alas, I was often dissatisfied and disheartened with the quality of the stories I read. Because of this I read and re-read my favourite authors: Judy Blume, Roald Dahl, John Marsden to name a few.

It's no doubt they've influenced my writing, but in recent years I stopped reading novels, feeling I was wasting precious time that could be used being productive. It's such a sad way to live, I realised this week, when the joy of reading returned. On Tuesday I felt compelled to read Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. I'd seen the movies, but fared from the books, acting upon the rumour I had heard that she wasn't very good at writing. But the story took me immediately- and I lost myself in it, forgetting where I was, not even realising I was reading, turning pages, living someone else's concoction. I've missed that feeling. I think I will make it my priority to read more. My English teacher long ago said I would be a better writer if I did.

Don't judge a book by its cover,
Its dull pages, or cramped fontsize.

Don't open its pages with expectations,
preconceptions, or limitations.

Don't hurry through to know the last line,
It's about the journey not the destination.

Don't close it in grief for its ending come,
Be glad for the life that was lived then done.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Autumn Mood Swings

We begin the journey that lays before Evelyn in autumn:

The days grew shorter, the night cooler, breeze past more frequently, and the plants began to change.

It starts out delightfully- taking off the edge of the heat from summer, and the days become pleasant. It is a pretty season, yet it holds such dread for the winter to come. With the changing days comes changing emotions. Both Evelyn and Shaphan experience wild mood swings, unaware of the effect the weather is having on them.

Oh I love thee dear flower
May your petals never fade.
Oh I love thee dear shower
May your droplets ever aid.

Oh I hate thee sun bright
Won't you ever go away?
Oh I hate thee black night
Won't your darkness turn to day?

Oh I love thee dear trees
May you never fall apart.
Oh I love thee dear breeze
May your wind cool my heart.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Summer

The last day of summer has come to a close in Evelyn's world, her eyelids imprinted with the sparkling night time sky. She leaves behind her a season that couldn't leave fast enough. Let us breath a sigh of relief on her behalf.

You bring me discomfort by your humidity
And burn by your ray
Oh Summer why do you forsake me?
Bring me rest, I beg, for just one day.

No, Summer will make you wait.
It will go 'til its done.
It knows about Autumn 
That it's not so far
And refuses to give up on its fun.

We yearn for you Autumn
to take away the sting.
May you come early this year-
Your cool breeze and shorter days...
Give Summer the fling.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Mistakes

Do you think people like making mistakes? Like to struggle? Like to experience pain and suffering? We certainly make things hard for ourselves, but then learn our most during these times. And for what we do not learn from, we usually experience again in some form or another.

How many times do we have to do something to do it right, to make a good choice, to act with good consciouses? Evelyn still doesn't get it. She fails to gather the strength to say no. Or really, she fails to rely on God for the strength to say no. There remains no option but this:

No regrets, no regrets.
I rejoice in new beginnings
And second chances, or third…
Forgiveness has become my new best friend.
But how to repair my broken past?

Friday, February 4, 2011

Not Your Ordinary Flower

The wonderful thing about writing is that you do not have to follow the laws of this world: you can create whatever you like in whatever way you like. A flower does not have to be like what you or I would call a flower. "Yes" could mean "no" if you so wish it. There could be no such thing as gravity. Heck, man could have never thought to slice bread! It's exciting having the opportunity to create things the way I would have them created: new, fresh, never thought of before! I mean, what's to say that this bottle brush I saw at Mt. Warning doesn't retract its flowers when the weather goes sour? Certainly invites for some interesting literature!