I was happy

Evelyn acts as if she believes that things will always be as they are. As if she has no power to change her circumstances. And she ruins any chance at happiness. She has only a sliver of hope, not allowing herself to get too excited over something, just in case the bubble is burst.

As she puts it, "I was happy. Then the happiness ended." It is almost like life is something just to be endured.

Anguish and tears fill my heart, fill my life,

It hurts too much to bare.

To run would be cowardice

To step closer would be foolhardy

There is only one choice; to stand my ground-

The place where the pain is most intense.

It is excruciating, unbearable, never-ending.

And my heart dies just a little...